Sometimes Our Father may comment, is it true that you are persecuted? I observed that you were OK last year at the St Vincent De Paul (SVDP)’s dinner for you? But I would need to explain further as follows how it would be safe or otherwise?
First, last year I was a blur and went according to the time specified and more than half an hour earlier to the venue. I was told to arrange all the tables and chairs. I helped set up everything, including the dirty job of moving heavy wooden tables top which is very sharp on its surface with rough edges which may cut into my finger if not careful.This time, on Sunday, 9th Dec, I was at home and decided to watch the video of James Blunt’s Chasing Time: the bedlam sessions just before I left for the dinner in Church. However, since I first bought James Blunt’s DVD in Sept I only have time to listen today. I was very much depressed as I watch his DVD recorded in BBC. All were sad songs except “You’re Beautiful” as this is the reason that I bought his CD as I take it as a compliment. I cried and cried as tears drip down my chic as it was truly sad and thus when I am done with listening to the whole of the DVD, it was already 4:50pm while the dinner is at 5pm.

I reached the St Ignatius church (SIC) at around 5:15pm. When I enter the B1 car park lift, I saw a family of Chin with a older member with his wrist bandaged, but I don’t want to see if it is right or left because it just showed that the doctor also play a part to bandage to show off to me. Because in my past experience, usually if they told you there is no risk, it mean a lie, i.e. More risk is awaiting for my downfall. Let’s see what follows next. Then I went up the lift to the 2nd floor and went in to the toilet before I proceed to the Attic level for the St Ignatius hall and truly everything was already set up. Even though I felt that last year, the poor like myself is even worst off than the poor as I need to work for my only yearly meal whilst the rest of the poor just came and eat. That is what I meant to be chin torture. Also to further complicate things, sometimes despite the fact that you were tortured, if you still display smartness, you will also suffer poisoning and aches and pains, etc.

So I waited at the door for to be guided to be seated. The Chin, Mrs B asked me to sit with one very decent looking in her 60′s nun who is with her brother who was an invited guest at the dinner. I said this is because on Tues or so, I was with another Chin single female in her 50′s to the St Teresa home to visit her nun friend, who look like a triad woman in her 40′s or so. Thus I was not thinking but had to close my eyes as I could not be bothered as I have to recover from my tears in my watching of the DVD. But obviously the very decent looking old chin man of the nun and herself would be offended by my attitude. Also I already in love with someone even I have not been through the married ceremony.

Then it has the arrival of all the guests from the various different homes who is under the care of the SVDP of SIC. Then as a healthy and enthusiastic person, I stand up from my meditation and greeted all the non-chin & 1 Mal guests which kisses on the chic of all except the Mal guests on the right side of the hall. Upon my return, I saw that one Chin guest in his 70′s who approx. 170cm with a very ragged look occupied my seat. (Thus the brother of the nun no longer wish to sit with me.)

Then the magic show began and when it needed a volunteer, one of the old folks from my table was presented to the Indian magician, thus I am in the company of the ‘able ones’ of the poor. But the magician had selected a Mal youth for his act instead of the one from my table presented to him by the organiser, who is also a chin.

Then the dinner started, with the first dish as the cold dish with assortment of meat and seafood platters was delivered up to the table. Without thinking, I saw the food and started to dip in after everybody had started. This time the meat ball(pork) was facing me and I took one piece too even though I am not a pork person. But then I observed that all the chin in my table said they had already eaten a lot in the afternoon and excuse themselves for not wanting to eat. Then the nun Teresa asked, ‘Pauline, eat.” So I ate another piece of deep fried pork meat ball wrapped in bean curd skin. (later I shall explain further).

Next, the soup came and immediately, Sis Teresa stand up to serve the table and obviously, I got the last bowl and less in everything. Anyway Chin food was full of MSG, I think. Then followed by steam Fish, my neighbour, Mr Baey is the one who serve our table and he acted with first waiving the tail of the fish in my position and then Sis moved it to serve again. Of course, I waited for everybody and I took it myself, while the others always often say, ‘Not for me or I had eaten a lot already’. Then Sis Teresa asked me to eat the fish head, as I know how to but reluctant because it had very little meat anyway but then it will be a waste so I just obliged to eat it. Actually the Chin also have a lie that those who are smart know how to eat the fish head. So I think positively in accordance to the culture by eating the fish head. Then while I was still having the fish head, the next dish came, this time it was sweet & sour pork. Sis T immediately distributed to all around the table and I got the last ones left on the plate, there were three pieces of them. Sis T said, ‘Pauline, take the meat.’ So I took in 2 pieces, one big which shape like the pig tail and another flat piece and left one smaller piece on the plat. As I reluctantly swallow the smaller one and the holy spirit tell me not to eat the bigger one which shape like the curl with a middle tail protruding out piece. I sudden realised that the reason that so many Ca priests had died because there are so many such evil dominating so called, ‘faked religious people taking care of them’. Then followed by the Chinese dried mushroom with green veggie. I saw that Sis stopped to distribute the dish, because they must be surprise or upset that I had not eaten the piece they intended for me. So I was the first one to take one piece of the mushroom (medium) with green veggie. It was not my normal act as I always took the biggest mushroom from the buffet dishes and ‘this world’ knew it. Then I am the last one to distribute the dessert for everyone.

True enough, in fact the poison were at least 3 types but I got only one of them as after the meal at Bingo session, I felt the growth on my anus active and my left breast was swollen a bit too.

Then the Bingo, they knew every number that I had, then this year the Mal did not collect too much of the money as they were quieter. I shall continue to blog later as I need a break.

True enough, after Sis T had distributed to all around the table, it left with the biggest mushroom and another next to it. Also on another occasion, I discovered that the chin chef were so good that they even knew how to poison a portion of the cake if they wanted to. As it was true, despite so many people with just enough 10 portions of food, the female guest next to me had refused to eat but say, ‘I don’t want to eat I am very full’ So that I would automatically eat it, thus the craftiness of the collaboration of the damned, irrespective of their looks.

I have just lost my job yesterday evening as Takashimaya was not happy for me to promote German wine for my boss and tried non-stop to rid of me and succeeded yesterday.  They send a Pakistani man with a baby girl to my booth.  I asked as usual, ‘How may I help you?’  He answered, ‘You don’t know how my wife look like.’ and walk away.  I then think about it, ‘I am selling wine and german food and not sex, why would I let him succeed?’  So I run up to him at the top of the alley in the middle near the water fountain and asked, ‘I don’t understand, what do you mean by that?’  He then retreated and said, ‘I am looking for my wife.’  So I ended the conversation and walk back to my booth.  Then the security head of staff, this time is the Chinki talk man, keep asking me, ‘what happen?’  I keep mum and continue my job and ignore him.  But he go on to complain to my German cook.  Then the German cook asked me.  So I told him, ‘that person is not our customer, he is a muslim” across the booth, I answered.  While the Taka’s male cashier staff told me, ‘don’t shout at me.’  I answered, ‘I am not talking to you.’  and I show faces to him as he had slity eyes.  Then the assistant cook, a Chinki, who make me cried on the first day as he non-stop complaint about my every move to the chief German chef, also show faces at me behind the German chef.  So the whole population is against me and the simple minded German chef have no choice but to call my boss, Mr Leonardo Noto.  Thus he asked me to go back to the office and I got terminated, with reason such as insult to the muslim where nobody saw the muslim man who went away after passing the remarks after taking bribe from the Chinki and left.  As I was not allow to work in Taka anymore and no more job for me.

But before that the Chinki hated me because I outsmart them, as the bought a $55 bottle of white wine 2Xs at 4:10pm and 4:30pm respectively and as I was an accountant by training, to pre-empt their cheating in the future, I put down the time and described the situation that the someilier was on his toilet break at the time and it was truely 2 separate sales by two of us to prevent dispute on the interest of the company and thus agitated the idiot Chinki.

You are absolutely correct about that waitress, Christine who work there too.  Prior to our working there I already tested her and knew she wasn’t on my side.  They can’t love me because due to difference in believe.  They were on devil’s side and I am on God’s side and thus the difference.

I apologised for telling you the truth.  Acutually they did more than the above described, I am only understating it.  I may be a great player but similarly like the Vietnam war, I am only one and the whole population is against me non-stop to destroy me. Thus it is very tough game to play.  It is non-stop bombardment by the clever, crafted cunning Chinki in an organised perfect crime.

Therefore, I understood what my father said was what the underground’s intention and I was not surprised at all.  Do you know that before this incident, about two weeks ago, my dad, shouted from the 2^nd floor window, “Go die.” In Hokkien to me.  This was also a collaboration of a total of 3 days events and it was its final statement.  As they thought that I am a mental illness patient and the only way is to make me hate myself and psychologically seduced me to commit suicide as their way of determining my life to be.

But at the symposium, I also realized that in fact all their achievement had the original ideas from me also.  Anyway, to be honest, love is a game where it is very hard to win.  Except in our heart we know that at least after rebuking the devils. We scolded them with constructive ideas to think about and thus explain all the progress that happens in this part of the world. 

Do you know that recently, I criticized and told my mum that, “Our culture is such that if you are a doctor, you learnt to kill and if you are an accountant, you must learn to cheat, etc.”  Thereafter, in the Chinese newspaper, they published the two doctors violates the rule by giving some wrong medication to its patients.  And yesterday, I read the news and realized that the London bombing was the gang of Muslim doctors.  Thus the evil force is there to make people had hatred in their heart and thus committed mortal sin by killing oneself or others in terrorism.

I am now an estate agent with no income since November 2006.  Simply they go behind my back to close deal without me or paying my commission.  It includes two Australia Gold coast holiday resorts/hotel for sale where I acted for the seller.  But I am in the mist of getting legal advice now.

It is nice to hear from you.  How is everything?  Did Caterpillar get rid of the slacker or damned Chinki ones?  Anyway, I hope every thing go wells for you.

The objectives of this book is to be able to be free of the burden of this world especially in my own country and be able to immigrate to the Western world, such as the United Kingdom, United States of America or Europe.  Also to find a white man as a husband to live a family life with my future husband and have children of our own and eternal life with God, our Father in heaven.  In addition, to be able to have enough for the rest of my life to live a life of abundant in this world.

Not only they hacked into my system but also phish my password for my yahoo email and checked all my sent email as almost all were clicked and read by them.  That is why yesterday at the concert at the Conservatory concert hall, the woman behind me used my word, “Switch off the “damned” phone.” (When a message came in to my phone.)

Yesterday was the 2^nd time a Malay woman with  head gear did not turn up at the wellness evaluation but was very nice over the phone and this 2^nd ones even request that her male Malay colleague be present too.  Thus is very cleverly deceived.  Also, last month on my way to deliver Garmit’s shake powder on the East bound train, a teenage Malay male with big headphone touch my shoulders behind me and I blow it up by speaking my mind and called them what they called themselves as the descendants of Chinese who eat pork.  But he just kept quiet and left at the 3^rd last stop before me at Pasir Ris MRT.  Then recently at Dover, after boarding as usual I sat at the door 19 and I felt someone purposely used her handbag to touch my right shoulder, at first I disregard, but then another Chinki middle age man used his sports shoe to push my right crossed sole of my shoe.  Then I looked to my right and realized that it was in fact 24 year old female Malay without head scarf, who was the culprit.  Then I just used my right shoulder to push her bag purposely too. (As I learned from the movie, History of the Night museum)  Then both retreated a little and the crowd also gave way, but the Indian on my left still haven’t got a clue what had just happened.

Do you know that long time ago that my dad told me that I should be working in Brunei as it is no entertainment and just earning a good income & tax free?  Thus I realized they were having very good relationship with the Muslim richest man.  Therefore, thereafter the scandal which the Sultan lost millions to his brother which I suspect is in fact used to sponsor the terrorist attack in major city of the world.  Thus it just prove the fact that the richest has no way to spend his money but on evil deeds claim falsely to be Allah related martyrdom.